More Than Words.

Is it just me or are the weeks going by really quickly? It's already been over a month since senior year started. My procrastinating is getting worse and worse and that is not good. I want to drop APES and AP Calc. BUT, because of someone, I'm reconsidering.

I wish time would go slower. Graduation is coming too soon. I want to embrace every single moment of senior year and I want to remember it for the rest of my life. I can't stop thinking about what's gonna happen after all of us graduate. I always hear that college is about leaving home, meeting new people, and things like that but I don't want to be too far away. I want to be close enough so I can come home whenever I miss a home-cooked meal and whenever I just miss my grandparents. College is too soon, I don't know if I'm ready for this. And my mommy called again the other. She keeps talking to me about after graduation. Which is even more of a reason why I don't want graduation to come so soon. For once, I wish time would go slower. Smh. Life is too short.

I think I over analyze things too much. I think about the same things over and over again and think about how I can make something better and what not and I think that's bad for my brain.

I wonder what's going to change when we're all off to college. Will everyone keep in touch or will everyone just make new friends and go on with their lives? Hmmm. I'm trying to only focus on the present and hope that everything else will just take care of itself.

Good luck to everyone who has SATs tomorrow! I should be studying for mine next month. Oh wells. I should also be doing my personal statements/college apps. Sigh.

Bad mood, good mood, bad mood, good mood. Life is a roller coaster. Meh.




I wish I can explain in words this feeling I'm feeling right now. Hm.


P.S., this is not a sad entry. Thank you very much. :}