Moments Slipped Away.

First of alllll, happy Halloween! I was surprised at the amount of people who dressed up to school, even though Halloween is actually tomorrow. I hope this much people dress up for Spirit Week. It would suck if leadership people are the only ones that dress up....like last year, lmao.

So today, I took a nap after I got home from practice so I missed dinner. We had Korean BBQ. Fail. I slept for about 4hours and now I'm up doing this because I can't sleep. Meh.

I hate how people automatically assume that short people can't do anything. Like for example, my family is constantly reminding me that I'm probably not good at volleyball because of my height. They're always saying things like, "What volleyball? Aren't you too short to play?" Piss me off. Alright, thanks for being so damn supportive. It makes me feel like I can never be good at anything and I tried so hard and came all this way for absofuckingtutely nothing.

I am hanging out with my best girl/guy friend, annoying brat, mother Malexandright tomorrow. Yipppeee! I'm excited. We're getting matching socks, lol how cute are we? Lalalalala, I don't know what to write about but I think I have an idea, so here goes.

Do you ever get the feeling that you let something you should have had go? I don't know if that made sense, so let me make it more clear: So you should have something, but you didn't take it when you had the chance, so now you're in the present living with questions like 'What if?' I think I feel like that a lot. I constantly question myself and ask how things would be different if I took a different path in life or "the road less taken". Would life be better? Would it be worse? I don't know, I feel like I let too many things go and in the end of it all, I'm just left with regret. Just kidding, I don't really regret. I wish I could have done things better, made better decisions, but never regret. Life is too short for that bullshit. But if everything really does happen for a reason, then there's a reason why my life is the way it is and I should be okay with that, right? Right.

Here are some quotes that keep my head up:
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

"Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections."

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My favorite Audrey Hepburn quotes:

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

"Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others."

Well, that is it for the night. Have a safe and fun Halloween!
xoxo.

Move Along.

You can move along, I believe that we are done.
With whatever we was trying to do.
'Cause you up and did me wrong.
Cupid got a big gun but a blindfold.
...
I don't wanna be rude, I don't mean to mean.
But I don't gotta deal with this mess.
Telling me I need you when you know you need me.
But if that's how you feel you can just,
Move along, move along, move along, move along.
No argument, no fight.
Move along, move along, move along, move along.
I'm just trying to be polite.
...
Song playing in my head, irreplaceable,
to the lies I'm deaf.
All I can hear is to the left, to the left.
So I say get out and don't touch that jacket.
Your stuff, I already packed it.
I'm being polite.

I don't wanna be rude, I don't mean to mean.
But I don't gotta deal with this mess.
Telling me I need you when you know you need me.
But if that's how you feel you can just,
Move along, move along, move along, move along.
No argument, no fight.
Move along, move along, move along, move along.
I'm just trying to be polite.

Please don't get me wrong.
Baby understand I'm trying to say get gone,
the nicest way I can.
'Cause I'm not what you want.
See I tried to make this work but our loves in the dirt.
So lets see who calls who first.
I'm moving along.

Hiya.

It's a pretty Sunday afternoon, and I'm stuck at home studying for AP Environmental midterm and AP Calculus test tomorrow. This is the life of Sandy Rhee. Just kidding, because I'm not even studying. I was watching Degrassi and eating practically the whole day. Ha! I'm sucha failure. Anywho, my whole body is sore and it's making me very angry; especially my back. Oh gawd. But on a brighter note, I am doing well in school. Except for Calc but who gives a flying raccoon's poop about that class anyway, right? No, I'm kidding. I have to bring my grade up or I am going to kill myself. Haaahah. I just really hope I don't get lazy towards the end of the semester. Engh.

Why did you IM me last night? Why? Why? WHY. Just wondering. Good thing I was sleeping though.

I need to get back on track with my college apps, I'm so behind. Wow. Someone motivate me to be on top of the things I have to do. Like homework. Ohhhhh dear.

Life is looking okay. Like I said, it's never perfect. But perfection has its flaws and there are rough patches here and there but the positives overpower the negatives so that's good. I'm in better moods these days because I'm sleeping earlier. Isn't that dandy? Haha.

hello sunshine.

TGIF. just kidding, not really.

it is currently 5:53AM and i woke up at 5 to study for my apes and government test today. as i was reviewing, i realized that both were surprisingly easy chapters so i'm hoping that i'll do well on the tests. anyway, since i have about an hour to kill, i thought i'd just blog about some stuff going on in my life and etc etc. someone told me that my posts are always sad. so i think i'm going to try to make this post mutual/neutral, possibly even cheerful lol.

so life has been going swell. there are days when i have my ups and downs but hey, life's not fair. i wouldn't say it's an extreme roller coaster ride though. things aren't to the extent where everything is going excellent then all of a sudden there's a tragic downfall you know? just good days and little fits with the grandparents is about it. other than that, everything is running smoothly and i'm doing okay.

i feel like i've been lagging my college apps A LOT. i've been talking to other people who are like honor roll and stuff like that and i feel like i'm just stooping myself to a lower level every year. like, when i was a freshman, i was so determined to work hard and go to UCLA because they have really good nursing programs. but as the years went on, my dream slowly faded. in junior year, i wanted to go to UCSD. they don't have a nursing program but they have really good science colleges which could help me to pursue my career. and now, as of this moment, i don't even know if i want to apply to UCs anymore. i think this is just a difficult phase i'm going through, i'm sure everyone goes through it. like you just think to yourself, "i really wish i did better in school before..blahblahblah." you feel me? haha. so yeah, i don't think i'd be sad if i didn't get into the top UCs of my choice because that's on my part. i should've known better and i should've tried harder but i didn't so there's no one to blame but myself.

senior year is going by so quickly. every week just flies by and the next thing you know, it's monday again. is this how it's suppose to feel like to be a senior? i don't know. it's not a good feeling, but it's not a bad feeling either. it's bittersweet. when i think about time going fast, i think about college life, meeting new people, going to live in a brand new environment, etc. but then again i think about leaving my old friends, leaving home, not eating home-cooked meals every day and things like that. hm. but regardless, i'm trying to make the best of my senior year and cherish every single moment. even if they're not going to be good memories later on.

oh and, i couldn't drop ap calc. which makes me really really really really sad. now i have to try to pass the class and i'm not excited for that. but everything happens for a reason and whatever happens, happens. blah.

ANYWAY, i think i'm going to review for my tests a little more and straighten my hair. it's a hot mess. :}


good morning world.

for you.

..I just want you.
I wanna be your Valentine, your Christmas wish, your pick-up line.
I wanna be the one who knows about your friends and foes,
and the TV shows you love.
Look above the stars, spell out your name with an exclamation point.
Cuz at the end of the day, you're the one who makes me say..
Help me find myself like how I found you.
I need you so we can live happily too.
I just want you. :)

I hate that I never have my way with words to tell you how I feel at that exact moment, and I'm sorry I'm really bad at this. haha. You probably get really frustrated because you want to know what's going on in my mind but I'm never able to tell you at the spot. But I hope you know that I'm never really upset even though I might seem like it. It makes me feel good to know that you pay attention to me and you notice every time I look sad. I get over things really quickly so I just want you to know that you never have to worry about me. But thanks for showing that you care anyway. :) And, I want you to know that you're the best thing that happened to me since senior year started. You're the first thing I think of when the sun shines bright, the last thing I think of when I sleep at night. I know sometimes I look mad/sad/whatever but I'm always smiling on the inside and I don't show it but I'm happy when I'm with you. Time goes too fast though. I hope this helps you understand at least a little how much you mean to me and how much I appreciate you being there. Thanks for always assuring me that things are going to be okay and encouraging me to look towards the brighter side of life. I'm glad you're my best friend and 10 years from now, at the Thanksgiving dinner, we'll have so much to talk about, lol. I wish I can better explain how I feel every time I'm around you but I think this just about sums it up. So hopefully soon, I'll be able to express the way I feel in words. haha. 'Till then, bare with me.

When it hurts to look back,
and you're scared to look forward,
just look to your side and I'll be there.

Both of us need to do homework so this is it for now. So that's it!


Oh, p.s., if you're a penguin, I'm a penguin.
:)

major writer's block.

I can't think of anything to write about, but someone keeps telling me to write. Because that person is my biggest fan and loves to read my posts, hahaha. So I'm trying to listen to music and hopefully something will inspire me and make me spit some words. Hmmmmmm.

I guess you were right; if you want the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain. I'm glad I had you to be there with me so I didn't have to go through it alone. And although it was raining today, my life is looking towards the brighter side and hopefully soon, there's going to be a very big, shining rainbow.

I decided to drop AP Calc. But that's if my counselor can do it for me. No questions asked, that's that.

I'm sleeping earlier and I'm getting on top of my schoolwork. But I'm sick and this is the longest I've ever been sick, I think. Seasonal flu, I hate you.

'Daily dose'
Deestylistics - One Life, One Love

I have so much running through my mind but I don't know what to write about and how to write what's going on so this is it for now. I'll write more another time. Tooodles noodles. :}

More Than Words.

Is it just me or are the weeks going by really quickly? It's already been over a month since senior year started. My procrastinating is getting worse and worse and that is not good. I want to drop APES and AP Calc. BUT, because of someone, I'm reconsidering.

I wish time would go slower. Graduation is coming too soon. I want to embrace every single moment of senior year and I want to remember it for the rest of my life. I can't stop thinking about what's gonna happen after all of us graduate. I always hear that college is about leaving home, meeting new people, and things like that but I don't want to be too far away. I want to be close enough so I can come home whenever I miss a home-cooked meal and whenever I just miss my grandparents. College is too soon, I don't know if I'm ready for this. And my mommy called again the other. She keeps talking to me about after graduation. Which is even more of a reason why I don't want graduation to come so soon. For once, I wish time would go slower. Smh. Life is too short.

I think I over analyze things too much. I think about the same things over and over again and think about how I can make something better and what not and I think that's bad for my brain.

I wonder what's going to change when we're all off to college. Will everyone keep in touch or will everyone just make new friends and go on with their lives? Hmmm. I'm trying to only focus on the present and hope that everything else will just take care of itself.

Good luck to everyone who has SATs tomorrow! I should be studying for mine next month. Oh wells. I should also be doing my personal statements/college apps. Sigh.

Bad mood, good mood, bad mood, good mood. Life is a roller coaster. Meh.




I wish I can explain in words this feeling I'm feeling right now. Hm.


P.S., this is not a sad entry. Thank you very much. :}

P.S., I'm Still Not Over You.

I miss Summer, please come back soon.

I've been meaning to update, but I never had the time to just sit and blab about my life. So today, I'm sick and drinking tea. I thought it was the perfect time to just think about what happened throughout the week and all that kinds of stuff.

I got this illness, unexpectedly yesterday morning. I thought it was going to go away, because sometimes I just have the sniffles when I wake up. But after the tournament, I was really really sick. And today morning, it was even worse. So I couldn't even get out of bed to go to church, I slept at 9:30PM and woke up at 11AM. Wow. I pray that I'll be better by tomorrow because we have a game against Westchester. My uncle's trying to convince my grandma to make me stay home, hell no. What is the matter with him.

Anyway, this week has been good overall. Lost to Venice, Palisades, and at the tournament but it's all good; a lot of mistakes were made and I really hope that we learn from them. I know the varsity girls are capable of much more and I have faith in them. Let's go lady lions. :)

Speaking of the tournament, yesterday was a really, really long day. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning to get ready to go to the tournament. Jose picked me up (thanks for being our driver, Jose!) and we went to go pick up Brandon. After scooping him up, we were on our way to get Press when a crazy, drunk driver in a pick-up truck went all out. We were the unlucky ones that had to get encountered with him, but he started yelling at us, telling us to get out of the car, and tailgating us for a good 15mins. He tricked us and caught us when we went through small streets. Wow, what a morning. Then we had a long tournament, Naomi went home sick. I hope you feel better, babygirl. So, Julie decided to catch a ride with us and go grab some food. Coach Ken came to watch me play, and said I improved a lot and that he's proud of me. HEHE. On our way back to LA, Julie and I knocked out in the car. The five of us went to In N Out and munched. We just chilled and talked for a while, deciding what we should do next. We came to the idea of going to Hollywood, since we were nearby. While we were there, we met some rude people who didn't do so well in school so they ended up dressing in character costumes asking people for money. No offense. Mr. Incredible said I was cheap when I didn't even ask them for a picture. What a throw. Brandon, Jose, and Press officially hate Sleeping Beauty now. After that, Jose dropped all of us off at home. I washed up and knocked out.

Life has been going smoothly lately. I got closer to a lot of new people and I feel like as of now, I don't really have that much to worry about these days (except college apps and SATs). This is a good feeling, it really is.

Going shopping with Sara, Eunice, and Andrew next week! Then Toy Story 1&2 in 3D with Brandon, Jose, Chris, Jay(?), and maybe Julie at El Capitan in Hollywood. No more pictures with those mean characters! Hmph.

That's it for today, I need to be doing my homework. I promised my BFF that I'd start at 12:30, and it is now 5:37. If you are reading this, I'm sincerely sorry, BFF. Minus one taco for my lagging. Hahaha. Disney movies soooon!!! :) This was a super long post, kbye.


♥Sandiepantie.