I'll Be Your Toad.

I just read through my posts over the past year and whoa, have I grown a lot(mostly emotionally). I love reading through these old posts because they're like watching a video of your old self. It's a good feeling to see how you've changed in so many different ways. Sometimes you've changed for the better, and sometimes for the worse but in the end of it all, I think everyone changes for the better. I just hope these changes don't overwhelm the best of me.

I've been so busy lately, it's ridiculous. Dealing with school and work and volleyball practice is no joke. But like I've mentioned before, I like this feeling. The feeling that I don't have time for anything but focus. It's just like, "I gotta get this done, I have no time!" But lately, time's been working out really swell for me. Which I find quite surprising because I am not that great with dealing with time. I think God's giving me a little break from all this tension and hard work. Ha, syke. Not really.

A lot of things have happened in the past week. Lots of things I wish I didn't do, lots of things I'm glad happened. Just over all, a lot of things. I think I'm always getting tangled up in the wrong mess. I'm just an open invitation with a bigass sign that says, "BRING ME THE DRAMA." Seriously, no matter how I try to run and hide from controversy, it just follows me around like my tail. I'm so sick and tired of it. I just want a year of no drama and NO BULLSHIT. Is that too much to ask for? Sigh. These are the days I really do consider living with my parents. My dad makes me feel like I have nothing to worry about if I come over there. But I know for a fact, it'll cause a lot of new problems. I think the last 2 weeks in Korea thing actually sometimes helps me. It helps me get a way for a while, but not too long that I miss out on summer fun. But just enough to clear my thoughts and come back with a fresh, new character. It does me well, sometimes.

My senior pictures will be coming in the mail in a few days. I'm anxious for them. I'm afraid that they might not look the certain way I want it to look or I look like this in a certain pose, or all that other crap.

Anyway, enough of this nonsense. I'm going to go to sleep soon. BYE!

SO COME ON AND FLY WITH ME.

I tried out my new shoes for the first time on Wednesday July 22, 2009. I'm so relieved that I bought a 1/2 size bigger because they were a perfect fit. I love them.



I really wish I could've bought the wave lightning 5's though.

My summer's been filled with intense work outs, running a lot, work, and volleyball. And at the same time, I'm trying to find some extra time for myself and friends. I love keeping myself busy. It keeps me from lazying around. But this summer will probably be just like last year, after summer school is over, I'll be on a plane to Korea for the rest of the summer. It sucks that this trip is always killing my summer plans. But the more I think about it, I really miss my dad. Yes, my dad, not my mom. Ha, that sounds bad but yeah. Call me a daddy's girl but I love my dad. Don't get me wrong though, my mom is my role model. She's the definition of INDEPENDENT, trust. She's the one who taught me to be strong.

I'm hoping that my dad will get me a dslr this year, for my early Christmas/18th birthday present. ;) My digital camera is breaking down on me. The quality is getting really bad, and it's starting to piss me off. I'm going to offer to pay half so I better get saving! I'm excited. YIPEE! Canon or Nikon? Either way, I'm coming for you baby!

or
The canons seem to run on a much larger megapixel scale...hm.

I'm making so many new friends this summer, it's fun! A few days ago, Charlie was giving me a ride home and asked me how my summer was going. I replied with a simple, "It's alright." And we chatted. He made me realize that this summer is the last official summer of being a high school student for me. I should be living it up every single day but I'm just occupying myself with school and work. It's ridic! But even if I wanted to have fun, my infamous, overprotective grandparents will have a say it in. Hmph.

Enough rambling. I've been watching 'Shining Inheritance' these days. It's a kinda predictable drama but it has its twists and turns. Oh, and I watched 'Orphan' today. It was the most lame horror film I have ever watched in my 17 years of living. Right after 'Grudge'. Wtf. I feel bad for my friend who I forced to watch it with me. :[ Wells, hope everyone had a blessed week! :)


♥Pantie.

BITTERSWEET.

I think I'm loving summer. It's tough; handling school, volleyball practices, AND work all together. But I'm liking it, it's a bittersweet feeling. I like feeling tired at the end of the night and just falling asleep as soon as I lay on my bed. It's actually a really wonderful feeling. And then sleeping in on the weekends are just the best.

Anyway, I finally got new volleyball shoes! My old ones were ripppping. I wish I had enough money for the latest edition of Mizunos but.....I'm broke. So the lightning4's will have to do for now. Arnel and I are going to get the 5's sooon!


Alright, that just made me tick.
You're a goner.

SUMMER HEAT.

I feel it kicking it. I hope I survive PE without becoming super dark. Massive sunblock use? I think so. Anywho, the second week of summer is about to end and this week was just super chill. I think so far, this summer will be the most chill. I feel like just doing a recap of my week. So here goes!

On Monday, I Sara came over like always and we went to Yogurtland. What's better than Yogurtland on a hot, summer day? NOTHING. :) Just kidding, maybe there are other options. But I didn't have yogurt in so long, it tasted yummy. Taro yogurt. ♥


On Tuesday, I went over to Erica's house and her momma made us super delicious spicy rice cakes and odeng. :) It wasn't too spicy and not too not-spicy. It was perfection. As we were waiting for Max to get ready, we watched a bit of 'How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days'. I seriously recommend this movie to everyone. Such a cute story. Then, Erica, Max and I went to Westside Pavillion and watched 'The Proposal'. Another movie I recommend, super cute! Ryan Reynolds is cute. ♥


On Wednesday, it was John Noh's surprise party. The loser had no idea whatsoever and we all played a game called 'King's Cup'. It was fun! Everyone was picking on JoeChin. (;

On Thursday, it was John, Amy, and EricJin's birthdays! Happy birthday to you guys! Hope you all had a wonderful birthday. ♥ Anyway, I went to DMV and signed up for my permit test. Oh dear God, I was so nervous. I made the most stupid mistakes. ]: FML.

Today, is Friday. Finally. There was an emergency KIWIN'S meeting at Lollicup. Their owner changed, wtheck. Weird. Anyway, if anybody knows anyone who is 21 or older that wants to help our club out, please let me know! I don't want our club to be shut down.

Tomorrow is 4th of July. I hope all of you have fun-filled weekends in store! I'm going to spend some quality time with my family and go to Raging Waters, the #1 water park in America...or was it California? Whatev. I'm excited! The last time I went there, I was too small to ride anything. -_-


I saw this at the pizza store on 3rd and Western. They're the biggest Lakers fans ever.
Hey Kobe, ready for another great year? Tehe. :) Aside from summer plans, Phil Jackson will coach for Lakers for the following 09-10' year! I think everyone saw that coming though. And regardless of all the mad shit that people have been talking about Ariza, I want him back. But, welcome to the Lakers Ron Artest. ♥

HERE WE GO AGAIN.

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me.
You only hear half of what I say,
And you're always showing up too late.
And I know that I should say goodbye,
But it's no use.
Can't be or without you.

Summer school starts in 3 days. Oh. My. Goodness. I am so not ready for 2 hours or PE. Anyway, I'm going to try to keep myself as busy as possible this summer. I should really start my APES work too... Sigh.

I miss my momma and daddy.
I think my momma's coming to visit.
But then again, she always says that.
So I can never trust her. Hahah.

Happy summer! :)

GOODBYE.

I laugh at myself for how pathetic I was acting.
I hate you for being a fucking pussy.
I love how everything is going your way.
I adore your ability to act like everything is a-ok.