Retreat.

So, I will be at retreat from Sunday to Wednesday.
Then there will be a New Year service..
I'm practically back on Thursday. But yeah.
I don't think I'm spiritually ready for this retreat. I don't know.
It didn't really get me hyped up and excited this year. Hmm.
But I'm still hoping that it'll really change my views and blahblah.
All that good stuff you know? :)


I've got something on my mind! And I feel light bulbs. LOL.
Hopefully this time I won't quit and just yeah.. :)
Got my eye on it!
What does it mean when something is constantly on your mind, but you feel like it shouldn't be there? But at the same time you feel like it's there for a reason? Then again you think to yourself that you shouldn't bother? BLAH.

I have to pack. Bye. :)

Dear Santa.

So I think I was being really mean yesterday. Hehehe.
I can't help it; I have a bad temper. -_- LAWLS.

Anyway, Christmas is 2 days away! :D
I usually expect something during this time of year.
But this year, all I really want is for my family to spend some time together.
I went to BC to shop with my grandparents a few days ago.
My grandma wanted to buy me something for my present;
And trust, there was a lot that caught my attention.
But I'm trying this thing to stay away from unnecessary things.
Yup, and with the whole financial beezy, BLEHK.

I should be looking for a job. -_-

I miss you.

Who's Different?

So I've been thinking..
Well actually it came to mind like a few minutes ago.
But here goes anyways!
A fresh, new year is coming around. :)
And I feel like I'm wasting my time on people who don't matter.
That sounds bad, I know. But that's just the way I feel.
There's people who know all my imperfections and my flaws, yet they still give me unconditional love.
But then there's a point where I feel like that love isn't real.
So I come to the think, who are my real friends?
I guess it's more of my problem that I don't trust my close friends enough.
And at the same time maybe I haven't found the right one to trust.
Too bad I lost the two people I've trusted most.
I guess you win some, and you lose some. And that's how it works.

I find it hard to understand why the world is so judging.
Of course there are limitations to all that but wow.
Mistakes are always being made but it's a matter of whether or not you learn from your mistakes and live on with your life.
If you hold onto that mistake, when will you ever learn?
Life is about growing, falling, and picking yourself back up.
Being humans we have this inevitable passion to keep on trying.

Haha, speaking of that, I wonder how you're doing.
It's been almost a year now. A really long year too.

So in conclusion, :)
I'd like to remind some people that I've been put in your positions before.
And now I finally understand how it feels.
Don't constantly make plans with me and then blow me off.
The end.

Official.

Break has offiiiccially started. :) WOOHOO!
It's almost 7 but it feels like so much later. Why?
I don't know either. ._.
Anyway, retreat is next week sunday!
I'm kinda excited for it but I'm kinda not at the same time.
I guess it's a good thing the teachers took out praise party the last night. But stilllll, they're so much fun. :( BOOHOO.

Antioch people and whoever else went to their retreat, is probably on their way over or already there? I'm not sure. But I hope you all have a fun and safe trip! Most importantly, get blessed:).

Volleybaaall today. It was alright. Not that bad.
But I still can't get my serves over. >:(
I'm working on it, it's getting there!!!!!!
I wonder why my grandpa is so discouraging.-_-
Piss me off. Ugh!
Season starts in about a month! I'm excited. :)
Ohyes, and we had to sign up for our jerseys and blahblah.
BLEH. I just went with the first number that came to mind.
let's go #9! :)

Reminder to self and all other volleyball players:
No open gym for the next two weeks. :(
The next time it'll be open is on the 7th of January I believe.
I'm gonna get so little practice time over break.
I think I'm talking about volleyball too much.

CHANGE OF SUBJECT.
I'm gonna try and be useful this break and do useful things.
Such as,
- Not procrastinate on my homework and all that.
- Finish AT LEAST 3 books or more.
- Spend time with people I haven't seen for awhile.
- Get as much practice as possible!
- Sleep early(er) and get lots or rest.
- ...I'll add more when I think of them.

I'm not that tired today. I think I'm gonna shower and watch Tazza(:
It's my new drama addiction! And I think everybody should watch it.
It's thrilling and so much fun! :D

Alrighty. This was a long entry. Happy (almost) Holidays!

Raaandom Thoughts.

Okay so today, it rained. YAY!
And it was seriously unbelievably cold.
But it's all good in the hood. :)
I looooove the cold!<3
My uggs got all weird and wet and stained. Ew.
Anyway, winter break is in two days.
I'm most definitely excited.
The one thing I'm really looking forward to is..
Guess what. Sleeping in. (: HEHE
Sooo if you wanna chill during break, it'll have to be after 12PM.
Because on days we don't have school, unless it's like SUPER important, you'll rarely ever see me awake before noon.
Except days when I sleep extra early the night before.
Whichhhhhhhhhhh.. is hardly ever.

I feel like the week went by slowly but quickly at the same time.
I don't know why I'm doing this when I should be studying for my tests tomorrow. LOL. Oh well.

For once, it's cold in my house.
It's making me wanna go under my sheets.
I wish I had a fireplace. That would be awesome.
I want the Twilight book set.
AND THE BIG BANG SHIRT OMGG.
TOP<3. The love of my life. (:

OKAAAAY. Enough of this nonsense. Gnite!

Winter Break.

Is just around the corner! (:
Let's make planssssss.

12/15 - dentist & doctors appointment
12/16 - early dismissal 1:37; c/o 2010 fundraiser @johnny rockets!
12/17 - open gym
12/18 - korean drumming?
12/19 - last day of school; vball practice
12/20 - rose bowl decorations
12/21 - church; vball practice
12/24 - christmas eve! :); open gym?
12/25 - CHRISTMAS.
12/28 - church
12/28-31 - winter retreat
01/01 - happy 2009!
01/05 - grandpa's birthday
01/12 - back to school

still have to fill in dates for permit test, playdates w/ fav, kyungyul oppa, joee, the lcr boys, paullee! and etc. ehehehe. I love this time of year. <3

C'est La Vie.

The weekend is slowly coming to an end.
I slept about 13hours last night and now I'm up doing this.

I have a lot of things going on in my mind lately. I can barely think straight. Life seems like it's flying past me and I feel as if I'm missing every important little glimpse of it. Junior year is almost halfway done and whoa, it feels as if the new semester was yesterday. I think I'm letting life pass by too quickly, gotta grasp my moment.

As for school, I'm slacking off like crazy. Senioritis? More like JUNIORITIS. Gross. I really need a tutor for APBio and trig. Anyone interested?! Help me out fellas. I'm in desperate need. ): Other than that, I think I'm doing alright in my other classes. I actually studied for my history test and I found it to be REALLY easy just as long as I go over the notes. Now I'm gonna bring that B up to an A++++. (: hehe.

My first official day of volleyball practice was fun. :D We just did scrimmaging and guess what! I got my serves over. WOOHOOO! Our coach says we have to learn how to jump serve. Wthail. T_T That's gonna be a tough one.. Considering that I just barely do correct ones.. But hey, practice makes perfect. Fasho to that. I'm still contemplating on what number I should be. I don't think we get our jerseys 'till later on, since our games start in January but I like to plan ahead(: I was thinking either 8 or 9, my grandpa likes #9 hehe(: And my grandma likes #4... Hmm.. Any suggestions?(:

I'm so emotional these days it's actually kinda funny. Hahah. I think blogspot helps me rant about all my mixedup feelings. It's like the new xanga. I love it. Except when we used to use xanga, we were so gay and pathetic. Oh and, also in the 6th/7th grade. LOL. Oh how I miss those days...not.

I loved the weather today. It was exceptionally wonderful. The sun was shining with a breeze. MY kind of weather. I would love it if it rained... Sigh, the weather has been going bonkers lately. From hot to cold to rain to sunshine. Mother nature has her mood swings too I suppose. :P

I should really go to sleep. I wouldn't wanna fall asleep during service.... x_x

My new song obsessions: Mario - I Choose You & Big Bang - Day by Day
Take a few minutes to listen to them. It gets me all in the mood. (:

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to live with life despite the imperfections. So be happy cause life sucks and you're doing just fine."

C'est La Vie.
That's life. Peace outtttt.

One more week.

TILL EFFING WINTER BREAK!!!!


I'm still deciding if I should do club. Hm..
Anyway, I'm sick and tired and so ughh.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
My body system is shutting downnn!
Maybe I'll stay home tomorrow.
If my grandpa's feeling nice:) TEEHEE.

I still have a D in AP Biology. WOWWWW.
I gotta get my shit together, pronto.
In AP English, I'm doing alright. B(:
I think I have a B in korean.. Not so sure.
A B in US History. Gotta bring that up.
My one and only A, DRAFTING. -_-
I HAVE A C IN TRIG. OMG. SOMEONE TUTOR ME.
Not sure about korean drumming.
Probably a B, if not higher.
That effing D is messing my GPA up to the max.
FLJAIMFLEIHALILCES.

Other than that, LIFE'S GOOD=].



Keeping strong and doing well at it(:


EGGSTAIN! AHAHAHAHAHA.
I want my doll & necklace back you skankhoe.