"But you're so hypnotizing. You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep. And I can see the sun raveling. Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me." - Demi Lovato.
The weather has been way too gloomy these days. Mudslides up in LC bound, too much mang. I finally carried an umbrella to school today. It was kind of weird, but at least it kept me dry, ha.
There are countless numbers of thoughts running through my mind at once, I can't concentrate. I hate the feeling of thinking you have something at the tip of your fingers and the next second, it's gone. I don't even know if I'm making sense but it all makes sense in my head.
I haven't seen my squeeze all week, 'cept on Monday 'cause we all hung out; with the hoe Casey and my main bitch Deborah. :) Finally gonna see the bugga on Saturday. We're gonna watch Avatar! I'm not lame, shutup. I'm actually glad my teacher is making us watch it for homework because if not, I probably wouldn't have watched it until it came out on DVD or something..just like I did with Transformers. But people say it's not the same as watching it in theaters. Whatevs, ya'll are losers. Haha.
You're the peanut butter to my jelly.
Excited.
Gotta get on that homework bullshi` and have the bugga distract me, like always. Hmu. :)
That's it for today,
xoxo.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
keep it fre$h
So I just got to listening to the CD that Deli made for me for Christmas and I must say, girl has a great taste in music! Now I've got new songs to listen to on my iPod, yippee! Anywho, I'm waiting for her as we speak so we can go play some volleyball and I just felt like blogging because who knows why.
I think I've come down with a cold and I am not feeling that great, physically. My nose has been runny all night and now my nose hurts from blowing my nose so much. Hopefully playing volleyball will sweat me out and all the sickness will be gone by tomorrow.
Speaking of, tomorrow is the first day back to school. I must say, winter break has gone by rather quickly, although I haven't been doing much but being a couch potato. And now, I have a price to pay because I have a ton of untouched homework that needs to be done by 8 A.M. tomorrow morning. It sucks even more because now I'm sick and my head hurts. I really hope I don't get distracted when I get home so that I can finish early, sleep early, wake up early, have a good breakfast, get to school on time, and have a good first day.
This week is spirit week and I'm excited for the Westchester game. I haven't been to a basketball game all my 4 years of high school and I'm still thinking about whether or not I want to go to this one because I think I'm scheduled to work. But, I want to live every moment of my senior so I think I should go, just for the memories. We'll see what happens though.
I don't know why, but I have so much to talk about today. One thing just keeps leading to another and I have things to talk about paragraph after paragraph. Oh, and on the plus side, my grandparents and I have been under good conditions for the past couple of weeks. I think this is the longest we've gone without arguing. Today my grandpa kind of annoyed me but I didn't say anything because I promised my uncle that in 2010, I will try to have a good year, since I'm graduating and all, and get along with my grandparents. It's only January, so I don't know how long I'll be able to keep that promise but hopefully I'll be able to.
For the past few days, I've been in extra good moods. I don't know why, but I just am. Deborah's got me under regulation and I hope this time really will be different, ha. Anyway, my mum says she'll be visiting in a couple of weeks, but my grandma says until she calls us at LAX, I shouldn't believe what she says. I really really hope she does come though, because she owes me my XSI!
I think that's it for now, I'll update some other time when I have absolutely nothing to do.
Want to know a random fact? I've been saying everything that I typed in this post. Haha, I'm in an exceptionally good mood today, aside from the fact that I am sick up the butt.
Meow.
xoxo.
I think I've come down with a cold and I am not feeling that great, physically. My nose has been runny all night and now my nose hurts from blowing my nose so much. Hopefully playing volleyball will sweat me out and all the sickness will be gone by tomorrow.
Speaking of, tomorrow is the first day back to school. I must say, winter break has gone by rather quickly, although I haven't been doing much but being a couch potato. And now, I have a price to pay because I have a ton of untouched homework that needs to be done by 8 A.M. tomorrow morning. It sucks even more because now I'm sick and my head hurts. I really hope I don't get distracted when I get home so that I can finish early, sleep early, wake up early, have a good breakfast, get to school on time, and have a good first day.
This week is spirit week and I'm excited for the Westchester game. I haven't been to a basketball game all my 4 years of high school and I'm still thinking about whether or not I want to go to this one because I think I'm scheduled to work. But, I want to live every moment of my senior so I think I should go, just for the memories. We'll see what happens though.
I don't know why, but I have so much to talk about today. One thing just keeps leading to another and I have things to talk about paragraph after paragraph. Oh, and on the plus side, my grandparents and I have been under good conditions for the past couple of weeks. I think this is the longest we've gone without arguing. Today my grandpa kind of annoyed me but I didn't say anything because I promised my uncle that in 2010, I will try to have a good year, since I'm graduating and all, and get along with my grandparents. It's only January, so I don't know how long I'll be able to keep that promise but hopefully I'll be able to.
For the past few days, I've been in extra good moods. I don't know why, but I just am. Deborah's got me under regulation and I hope this time really will be different, ha. Anyway, my mum says she'll be visiting in a couple of weeks, but my grandma says until she calls us at LAX, I shouldn't believe what she says. I really really hope she does come though, because she owes me my XSI!
I think that's it for now, I'll update some other time when I have absolutely nothing to do.
Want to know a random fact? I've been saying everything that I typed in this post. Haha, I'm in an exceptionally good mood today, aside from the fact that I am sick up the butt.
Meow.
xoxo.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
imagine.
Imagine there's no countries, it isn't hard to do.
Nothing to kill or die for, and no religion too.
Imagine all the people, living life in peace.
You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one.
Imagine no possession, I wonder you care.
No need for greed or hunger, a brotherhood of man.
Imagine all the people, sharing all the world.
You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one.
Happy 2010! It's a new year so it's time to put all the bullshit behind me and start off fresh. No pointless resolutions this year, nope. Just a new me, with a brand new character. Watch out world. I'm coming back with thicker skin and a stronger mindset than ever before.
I was literally laughing my ass of today, well, just now. Today at the KIWIN'S OTC, Shelley was telling us not to do anything if you can't fulfill the full requirements. You're not responsible unless you do everything that you were supposed to do. Likewise, don't play the game if you can't win. That's all I have to say. Juggle balls with a girl who knows the game way too well and you will lose.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
Nothing to kill or die for, and no religion too.
Imagine all the people, living life in peace.
You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one.
Imagine no possession, I wonder you care.
No need for greed or hunger, a brotherhood of man.
Imagine all the people, sharing all the world.
You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one.
Happy 2010! It's a new year so it's time to put all the bullshit behind me and start off fresh. No pointless resolutions this year, nope. Just a new me, with a brand new character. Watch out world. I'm coming back with thicker skin and a stronger mindset than ever before.
I was literally laughing my ass of today, well, just now. Today at the KIWIN'S OTC, Shelley was telling us not to do anything if you can't fulfill the full requirements. You're not responsible unless you do everything that you were supposed to do. Likewise, don't play the game if you can't win. That's all I have to say. Juggle balls with a girl who knows the game way too well and you will lose.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
true colors
I finished the season one of Glee, the ending was so cute and now I've got at least 10 new Glee songs in my iTunes!
As the year is coming to and end, I can't help but look back on 2009 and reminisce on the many things, both good and bad, that have happened over these 365 days. Last night before I went to sleep I thought to myself, "Gee..this is the last night I'll fall asleep and wake up to another day of 2009. When I go to sleep tomorrow and wake up in the morning, it'll be a brand new year." I was so so so so so very nostalgic. I'm really looking forward to 2010, for that matter. It's not like any other new year where you make new year resolutions that you're never going to keep. I realized that I'm a step closer to being 18, to graduating, to starting college, and so much more. I'm really hoping that this year will open my eyes to a lot more than I saw this past year and a lot of doors will be opened for me. I wish I could say that I have a list of things that I want to change and things I want to accomplish over the upcoming new year, but I decided, no more useless resolutions. I'm going to take everything one step at a time and I'll take it all of it as it comes towards me one by one.
"The only people you need in life are the people that prove to you that they need you in theirs." & "I've been let down by the people that I love, but I will not let down the people who love me."
My last post of 2009! ---
Thank you to all the people I met over the year, the people I got to know a lot better, the people I've lost respect for, the people who have showed me how much I mean to them, and most importantly, my grandparents for being patient with me and bearing with my imperfection.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
As the year is coming to and end, I can't help but look back on 2009 and reminisce on the many things, both good and bad, that have happened over these 365 days. Last night before I went to sleep I thought to myself, "Gee..this is the last night I'll fall asleep and wake up to another day of 2009. When I go to sleep tomorrow and wake up in the morning, it'll be a brand new year." I was so so so so so very nostalgic. I'm really looking forward to 2010, for that matter. It's not like any other new year where you make new year resolutions that you're never going to keep. I realized that I'm a step closer to being 18, to graduating, to starting college, and so much more. I'm really hoping that this year will open my eyes to a lot more than I saw this past year and a lot of doors will be opened for me. I wish I could say that I have a list of things that I want to change and things I want to accomplish over the upcoming new year, but I decided, no more useless resolutions. I'm going to take everything one step at a time and I'll take it all of it as it comes towards me one by one.
"The only people you need in life are the people that prove to you that they need you in theirs." & "I've been let down by the people that I love, but I will not let down the people who love me."
My last post of 2009! ---
Thank you to all the people I met over the year, the people I got to know a lot better, the people I've lost respect for, the people who have showed me how much I mean to them, and most importantly, my grandparents for being patient with me and bearing with my imperfection.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
Monday, December 28, 2009
and these are my confessions..
So a few days ago, I was just on Mickey's video site thingymajigger, whatever those are called. And I was looking for something to watch and I just decided to watch Glee, since everyone was saying it was really fun. Now I'm on episode6 and it's pretty interesting. It's like a TV show of High School Musical but still, it's fun.
In the show, the girl cast sings the song Take A Bow by Rihanna and I must admit, it's almost, or maybe even better than the original. After I heard it, I downloaded it and now I'm just playing it on replay. People are always talking about how cool it is when you find lyrics to a song you can completely relate to. I'm not saying I can relate to the lyrics but something tells me that time might be coming sometime soon. But I'm not a fortuneteller so we'll just have to wait and see. The only thing you can do in doubt is just to have hope and pray that everything will turn out for the best.
My jiral flow is not flowing correctly. It feels like there's like a blood(word) clot in my brain and vocabulary just isn't flowing through it as if I'm in this state of a brain coma, if that even makes sense. My writer's block is so bad that I'm not even making sense.
Or maybe, it's not really writer's block. I just don't have a way with words. I wish I had like a personal translator for me so that whenever I can't say the things I want to say, something will just say it for me. I wish there was a way I can explain in clear words what's going on in my mind or even what I'm feeling at that exact moment. I don't know how I turned out to be like this but it's especially hard when I want to tell someone something and there's just something that's holding me back from saying what I want to say. Meh.
Anyway, today, I'm going to a potluck with my cousins at Sandra une's house. I'm gonna go get ready early so I'm not rushing myself later, teehee.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
In the show, the girl cast sings the song Take A Bow by Rihanna and I must admit, it's almost, or maybe even better than the original. After I heard it, I downloaded it and now I'm just playing it on replay. People are always talking about how cool it is when you find lyrics to a song you can completely relate to. I'm not saying I can relate to the lyrics but something tells me that time might be coming sometime soon. But I'm not a fortuneteller so we'll just have to wait and see. The only thing you can do in doubt is just to have hope and pray that everything will turn out for the best.
My jiral flow is not flowing correctly. It feels like there's like a blood(word) clot in my brain and vocabulary just isn't flowing through it as if I'm in this state of a brain coma, if that even makes sense. My writer's block is so bad that I'm not even making sense.
Or maybe, it's not really writer's block. I just don't have a way with words. I wish I had like a personal translator for me so that whenever I can't say the things I want to say, something will just say it for me. I wish there was a way I can explain in clear words what's going on in my mind or even what I'm feeling at that exact moment. I don't know how I turned out to be like this but it's especially hard when I want to tell someone something and there's just something that's holding me back from saying what I want to say. Meh.
Anyway, today, I'm going to a potluck with my cousins at Sandra une's house. I'm gonna go get ready early so I'm not rushing myself later, teehee.
That's it for today.
xoxo.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Gentlement Don't.
I love Gabe Bondoc. His voice is so soft & soothing, listening to his music just makes me want to curl up in my bed & sleep.
Anyway, I'm only blogging because I really need to rant right now. I'm so speechless but at the same time I have so many things running through my mind that I constantly have to erase what I type because I keep making typos. This is ridiculous. I am in utter shock & completely in loss of words.
Even in my state of speechlessness, I have SO MUCH shit I wish I could say to you right now. How you played me for stupid but I take that fault on me. I'm stupid for letting you take me for granted & thinking that I'm stupid enough to fall for your bullshit. It was my mistake to fall for your sweet talk & it was my fault for thinking you were being honest. I should have realized from the first time that you weren't going to change but I didn't think it would hurt this much to have the smallest hope.
Anyway, I'm only blogging because I really need to rant right now. I'm so speechless but at the same time I have so many things running through my mind that I constantly have to erase what I type because I keep making typos. This is ridiculous. I am in utter shock & completely in loss of words.
Even in my state of speechlessness, I have SO MUCH shit I wish I could say to you right now. How you played me for stupid but I take that fault on me. I'm stupid for letting you take me for granted & thinking that I'm stupid enough to fall for your bullshit. It was my mistake to fall for your sweet talk & it was my fault for thinking you were being honest. I should have realized from the first time that you weren't going to change but I didn't think it would hurt this much to have the smallest hope.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
HeroHeroine
It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I got my hands to my pocket & my head in a cloud
This is how I do, when I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile & a hold on my heart
You wanna get inside, then you can get in line
But not this time, cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running & screaming
I feel like a hero, & you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin
And I feel the weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Have my heart on lock down, then you turn me around
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated, I was so jaded
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running & screaming
--
I used to love BLG to an indescribable extent but I feel like they're music is overplayed. After their songs started getting played on KiisFM, I was just like, bump this. But regardless, this is still one of my favorite songs by them. I randomly stumbled across it while my iTunes was on shuffle & it made me realize that I feel kinda sorta the same. Don't you love it when your life is like the lyrics to a song? Not me. Haha.
I'm moving on, & opening my eyes to new options. If you have recommendations, please feel free to fill me in. Anyway, a fellow friend, whom I just met through another fellow friend has been sending me lots of good songs & I am so far liking every single one. On the other hand, though, I love Owl City. Their music sounds fresh & just..clean. & Also, the remake of Kiss Me, originally by Sixpence None the Richer, is really good. The remake is by New Found Glory & it adds a little 'umph' to the song, to say the least. Oh, what my life would be like without the beauty of music.
Winter break has officially started & I cannot say enough how happy I am. I'm really excited but nostalgic at the same time because first semester is slowly coming to an end. Which means...second semester is just around the corner. & You know what that means; Senior year is about to start forreal. I always looked forward to all the senior events that upperclassmen told me about when I was just a teeny freshman. But now that I'm actually at the verge of getting closer to graduating, I'm reminiscing like crazy on the past 3 years of high school.
Yesterday in leadership, we went around & talked about what our dream college was & seems like a lot of people have big dreams. Many talked about UCLA, some talked about UCSD, there were some Standford, & there was ivy leagues. It made me feel like I'm not giving myself much of a accomplishment I want to reach. I think I lost all hope after junior year. It sounds bad, but going to the "brand name" colleges, as Mai put it, doesn't mean you'll be successful. You'll have a better chance, maybe, but you have other options. & That's how I'm looking at it from now on.
Anyway, when it was the freshmen's turn to talk, I can't even explain how badly I wished I was a freshman again. If I had the chance to, I would re-do high school all over again. I would have the right mindset to get me somewhere in big in my life & I would do everything the right way. But then again, without the mistakes I've made in my high school life, who would I be now? Just some other stereotypical Asian that wants to make it to the typical Asian dream school? No, I'm an individual & I'll do whatever the hell I want to do with my life & just pray that whatever it may be, that God will lead me through the right paths. I may not want to have the same dreams of the ones that will be doctors, lawyers, etc., but "success if my only motherfucking option, failure's not."
I think since senior year has started, I've lost respect for a lot of people. There are so many fakes & unwelcoming people in this world but I'm not one to judge because I'm sure I give that impression to other people as well. But then again, it's different when it comes from someone you thought was your friend, you know? I think there's times when you just feel totally neglected by a person & then all of a sudden they want to give you all this attention. It doesn't make sense to me why people lie & why people are dishonest, especially when I give them the opportunity to tell me the truth. It hurts me more when I give you the chance to be honest & you lie to my face. That's just telling me, "You're stupid. You'll never find out that I'm lying to you." & Then when I DO find out, you say you're sorry. You're not sorry you did it, you're just sorry I found out.
That's it for today.
Toodles, xoxo.
I got my hands to my pocket & my head in a cloud
This is how I do, when I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile & a hold on my heart
You wanna get inside, then you can get in line
But not this time, cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running & screaming
I feel like a hero, & you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin
And I feel the weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Have my heart on lock down, then you turn me around
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated, I was so jaded
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running & screaming
--
I used to love BLG to an indescribable extent but I feel like they're music is overplayed. After their songs started getting played on KiisFM, I was just like, bump this. But regardless, this is still one of my favorite songs by them. I randomly stumbled across it while my iTunes was on shuffle & it made me realize that I feel kinda sorta the same. Don't you love it when your life is like the lyrics to a song? Not me. Haha.
I'm moving on, & opening my eyes to new options. If you have recommendations, please feel free to fill me in. Anyway, a fellow friend, whom I just met through another fellow friend has been sending me lots of good songs & I am so far liking every single one. On the other hand, though, I love Owl City. Their music sounds fresh & just..clean. & Also, the remake of Kiss Me, originally by Sixpence None the Richer, is really good. The remake is by New Found Glory & it adds a little 'umph' to the song, to say the least. Oh, what my life would be like without the beauty of music.
Winter break has officially started & I cannot say enough how happy I am. I'm really excited but nostalgic at the same time because first semester is slowly coming to an end. Which means...second semester is just around the corner. & You know what that means; Senior year is about to start forreal. I always looked forward to all the senior events that upperclassmen told me about when I was just a teeny freshman. But now that I'm actually at the verge of getting closer to graduating, I'm reminiscing like crazy on the past 3 years of high school.
Yesterday in leadership, we went around & talked about what our dream college was & seems like a lot of people have big dreams. Many talked about UCLA, some talked about UCSD, there were some Standford, & there was ivy leagues. It made me feel like I'm not giving myself much of a accomplishment I want to reach. I think I lost all hope after junior year. It sounds bad, but going to the "brand name" colleges, as Mai put it, doesn't mean you'll be successful. You'll have a better chance, maybe, but you have other options. & That's how I'm looking at it from now on.
Anyway, when it was the freshmen's turn to talk, I can't even explain how badly I wished I was a freshman again. If I had the chance to, I would re-do high school all over again. I would have the right mindset to get me somewhere in big in my life & I would do everything the right way. But then again, without the mistakes I've made in my high school life, who would I be now? Just some other stereotypical Asian that wants to make it to the typical Asian dream school? No, I'm an individual & I'll do whatever the hell I want to do with my life & just pray that whatever it may be, that God will lead me through the right paths. I may not want to have the same dreams of the ones that will be doctors, lawyers, etc., but "success if my only motherfucking option, failure's not."
I think since senior year has started, I've lost respect for a lot of people. There are so many fakes & unwelcoming people in this world but I'm not one to judge because I'm sure I give that impression to other people as well. But then again, it's different when it comes from someone you thought was your friend, you know? I think there's times when you just feel totally neglected by a person & then all of a sudden they want to give you all this attention. It doesn't make sense to me why people lie & why people are dishonest, especially when I give them the opportunity to tell me the truth. It hurts me more when I give you the chance to be honest & you lie to my face. That's just telling me, "You're stupid. You'll never find out that I'm lying to you." & Then when I DO find out, you say you're sorry. You're not sorry you did it, you're just sorry I found out.
That's it for today.
Toodles, xoxo.
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