Too Little, Too Late.

Ayee, sorry Erica! I completely forgot about taking the pictures. Tomorrow forsure (or at least I'll attempt to).

Disappointment was the word I was looking for.

I thought, and that's where I went wrong.

I just read Joe's blog and I remembered the movie "John Q". If you haven't watched it, I most definitely recommend it. It's honestly one of the best/touching movies I've ever watched. Anyway, in the movie, the little boy always say, "Not goodbye, see you later!" I thought that was the cutest thing ever.

AP exams are coming up and I'm not that worried about it. I don't know. Speaking of, I had a precalc test today! I think I did bad. :( Tests and I aren't meant to be together.

I want...



- Volleyball shoes; Mizunos Wave Lightning 4

I need new glasses.

I'm wasting my time doing this while I should be doing homework. So TTFN.


♥Pantie.

A Fresh Start.

So I'm about to go to bed and I just wanted to make a quick update before I do so. Which is weird because this is probably gonna take up 15-30mins of my time and I could use that time to go to sleep. Hm.

Anywho, I've been thinking a lot lately. People tell me I think too much. Which, in some cases, can be a bad thing I suppose. But in other situations, could be a good thing. I wish I had a secret place, to just run off to when I'm not in the mood or when I just need some time alone. At times like this, I really miss my old house. When I was feeling down, I'd just take a blanket and go up to my rooftop and just lay there and watch the clouds go by. Things change though; sometimes for the better, and sometimes for the worse but that's the way life is. "When life gives you lemons, you just simply make lemonade."

I'm gonna get myself a pair of skullcandy earphones tomorrow.

I can't wait for senior year. This year's summer will be one to remember, hopefully. Anyway, I'm tired. So I'm gonna use this "only a little homework" day wisely and go to sleep early. I will be updating during computer class tomorrow. :)

I will ninja-ishly take secret pictures of Willy because Erica thinks he's cute. hehe.


♥Pantie.

C.R.E.A.M.

--deleted.

♥Pantie.

Call Me Emotional.

I'm usually not like this. Really, I'm not.

So today was our 3rd mandatory tournament at the American Sports Center in Anaheim. Unfortunately, I didn't get to play because I forgot to bring my jersey.
...I know right? Laugh all you want, but I was pissed off to the max and I even cried. I know it wasn't a big deal because everyone kept telling me, "There will be other games." But nobody will ever know how much I wanted to play this time, seriously.

--deleted.

On a brighter note, Julie and I are now the new secretaries of KIWIN'S 2009-2010. Yay! :) But too bad my birthday dinner is cancelled due to the banquet on the same night. :( Although, after that post about friends and stuff, I don't even feel like having it anymore so who cares.

I should be doing my homework. TTFN!


♥Pantie.

Busy Weekend.

It's 3:30AM and I have no idea what I'm doing up. I'm literally yawning every two minutes and look what I'm doing. But while I'm at it, might as well finish. I've got a busy weekend ahead of me and tons of homework that needs to be done. I don't know how I'm going to find the time to finish everything. Hopefully all works well.

Oh and, I got my Red American Cross card today, from donating blood. Why doesn't my card have my blood type on it? I was so anxious to find out what blood type I am and it doesn't even say... Shame.

Anyway, I'm too lazy to type things up so I'll just upload a bunch of pictures. :)


She's so sophisticated for her age. She's only 16 and she's making millions of dollars every concert/tour. The sweet life of a teen popstar eh?


Daddy's little girl? Seems a tad bit too much there Cyrus.


Cute picture. One question though, why is Emma Roberts there?


You have to admit, the movie could've been a hundred times better than it was. But with the budget and the horrible newbie director they had, what more can we expect? And one more comment, Robert Pattinson is really hairy. ._. Nonetheless very sexy, hehehe.

Okay, I fell asleep so I'll have to continue this later when I have time. Bye!


♥Pantie.

Crank.

My post got deleted again! Ugh. So I'm kind of lazy to re-type everything that I wrote but I have nothing to do in this class anyway.. Might as well I suppose.

I watched Crank2 with my brother and Eunice last night. And personally, it wasn't that great of a movie. There was hilarious scenes here and there but overall, the movie was straight up nudity and violence. Which, I guess, makes sense why the movie is rated R. I don't want to write my whole summary again! >:( But there was this super ridic scene where Chev Chelios(Jason Statham) was at this horse race and he didn't have any source of energy to pump up his artificial heart. So he calls his friend and his friend tells him that he can use friction. Then Chev decides to have sex with his girlfriend in the middle of the racetrack. And I found out that those sex scenes are real. How awkward, having sex with a costar. Hm. Anyway, long story short, he finds his heart. His friend, who is supposedly a professional heart surgeon places his heart back. But his line thingy, you know, the thingy that tells you if a person dies and if it goes BEEEEP, that means they died? Yeah, that thing. So everyone thinks he's dead, when he's not. Which is pretty much like how the beginning of the movie started. Chev falls from over 100,000 feet in the air and HE SURVIVES. I know right? Whack. I wouldn't be surprised if they came out with a third movie. Bravo to the directors, bravo. Not.

Nonetheless, Jason Statham is freaking hot. :)
"What's up with girls liking all these old guys?" -James.

Jason Statham vs. Robert Downey Jr.
Dundundun!

This computer is hella laggy and I don't want my post to erase again so I'll upload pictures later. Bye!


♥Pantie.



P.S., I want to subscribe to Seventeen again, and Teen Vogue. Maybe Rolling Stones? Yum.

Yet Again.

I'm sitting in my computer class waiting for the bell to ring to dismiss us to lunch. I'm praying that this time my entry will get saved and I won't be upset about writing a whole essay and not being able to post it. -.- Anyway, I just wanted to quickly update on another set of makeup kits that has made it to my wishlist. Well, not necessarily but I just love the person who created this makeup line and I adore her. If you're a girl, maybe you've seen her on Youtube. She's known as Pancaea or something like that and she literally has hundreds of videos of tutorials on how to apply makeup. A lot of her tutorials are influenced by celebrities and the one of Leona Lewis is a smashing hit! It has over a million views and goodness, I'm so proud that Lauren(the person in the video) has made it to the top. She's absolutely one of a kind and definitely someone to look up to. Her makeup kits are launching on April 28 so make sure you girls keep yourself updated!

I absolutely LOVE her collection and want to buy them all! Except most of them are colors I rarely ever wear. The only color makeup I mostly wear is pink or silvery shades. Bleh. I have so much homework. Thankfully I have no work today. I'm psyched out for my research essay that's due tomorrow. I'm kind of relieved because there are people who haven't even touched their assignments yet. I've got one and a half page down, 4 and a half more to go! Ew.

Please tell me your thoughts on animal testing. Thank you!


♥Pantie.

Cosmetics.

I have a feeling this entry will be a long one.

I haven't updated in awhile, and that makes me sad. But what makes me happy is that things are going really well these days! And I didn't know people actually read my blog but getting feedback from my friends for my blogs, even those that aren't that "jolly" and "not so like myself", makes me feel special. Thanks for reading! :) Anyway,

I'm getting obsessed with makeup/cosmetics these days. I think since I started working, I had this urge to make myself look older. Yeah, I know I'm weird. But I've been applying makeup more these days, which is kind of weird. I'm not immune to it, yet. And I'm not really the type to put on makeup which makes it even more weird. But I've been browsing through Youtube and watched a lot of good tutorials on how to apply different styles of makeup and it makes me want to try it out! Plus, I've decided to change my "style" or whatever in senior year. I don't know why, I'm bored with myself I guess. Hahahah. So with my birthday coming up in a couple of weeks, I reeealllly want to get myself some new makeup, makeup kits, brushes, etc. Oh and, more clothes of course!

Speaking of my birthday, I'm having a hard time deciding where I want to eat for my birthday dinner. I just wanted to do something simple, but then again I wanted something semi-formal and fun. So I came down to the following choices: Maggianos, Benihanas, and Cheesecake Factory. If you're reading this, please leave a comment on which you prefer. I'd appreciate it a lot. =) I can't believe I'm 17 already. Jeeeez, time flies, doesn't it?

I've found a lot of sites that sell affordable makeup! I love MAC products but the only problem is that they're so darn expensive. These cosmetics seem to be in good quality and some say that they're even comparable to MAC. So if you're a makeup frenetic, check the sites out!

www.cuberry.com and www.coastalscents.com


$21.95 @ coastalscents.com
- This would be so perfect to start my makeup frenzy, and so cheap too!


$28.95 @ coastalscents.com
- A bit more simple than the one posted before. I don't understand why it costs more. Maybe because there's more blush and since it comes with brushes? I'm not too sure. But also very cute and on forsure on my wishlist!


$21.95 @ coastalscents.com


$15.99 @ cuberry.com
- A double brush set. Useful and handy!

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Away from the cosmetics topic, but still on the Youtube subject; this might be old news but Rin on the Rox is back! If you haven't seen their videos before, they're best friends who sing for merely their own entertainment and ended up becoming popular on Youtube. Their account got deleted for copyright situations but they're back with a new single! Give it a listen.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkWM2aY5ZSs -Torture, by Rin on the Rox.

I also found out that Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, and Miley Cyrus have Youtube accounts. Is it just me or is that a tad weird? I mean, who would've thought that super stars like them would have the time to upload videos on Youtube? No offense whatsoever, though. Nonetheless, their videos are pretty funny.

Anyway, my week has been great! Aside from the fact that I've been sick all week. But it's all good. My cold is getting much better. And you know what else is getting better, my grades! Which is awesome! I chose my senior classes and everyone's been bagging on me about how senior year is supposed to be the "best year" and I'm taking 2 AP classes for sure and maybe 2 more. I'm having second thoughts though.

So far,
AP Environmental Science
AP Calculus
Honors Goverment (maybe AP)
Honors English (maybe AP)
Service/ChemistryB
Maybe volleyball? Maybe home for 6th?
There you have it!

Anyway, it's late. I have church in approximately 7 hours. Holy shmokes. Goodnight!


♥Pantie.



P.S.- I made one OFFICIAL Youtube video. But the only person that'll probably see it is FrancesT since I said I'll make one for her. Haaahahah. Connie says to make a makeup tutorial video. Sadly, I'm not that great at applying makeup. I just go with whatever seems natural and not too like... "WHAM!" You know what I mean? Yeah. Maybe I'll convince Connie to make one with me. =) Yay! Alrighty, TTFN! (tata for now) :)

Almost.

Spring break is almost over and I'm seriously devastated. I haven't done any break homework besides reading one and a half chapters from the Grapes of Wrath and two of my AP bio packets. Oh goodness gracious. Lord have mercy on my soul.

[x] Ch.41 packet
[x] Ch.42 packet
[ ] Ch.43 packet
[ ] Ch.44 packet
[x] Read ch.16+17 of Grapes of Wrath
[ ] AP English practice test
[ ] Start on research paper
[ ] Korean test 4/13
[ ] Korean project
[ ] 5pgs of precalc

HAHAHAHA. Okay, I made a bet with Press that I won't do all my homework on the last day. So I better get started if I don't want to lose my bet. -_- So I'm gonna stop wasting my time watching Full House and do my homework. BYEBYE!


♥Pantie.

Back Here.

Hiiii guys.
So I just got back from the kick back and I'm feeling kinda tired. But I just wanted to update before I go to sleep.

Thank you's to Erica Hayakawa, Jin Bae, and Frances Park! :) Thank you for the encouragement and the pep talks. Seriously, it meant a lot. Who knows what I would've done if I wasn't online talking to you guys (text with Frances). Haha. But everything is swell now and I think my grandpa isn't mad at me anymore. Thanks for the prayers BFFL!

Anywho, I woke up in the morning around 11ish. I talked to Gogi online and we decided to go eat. And by we, I mean me. Hahah. And then we went to Bacha's pad and I just watched some guys box. Then I bussed it back home and chilled with Julie and Jean until work. Work was okay, and after I walked over to Ramada and yeah. Today was a reeeally chill day. I didn't have a bad day, which is a plus! And I don't know, it was just a really good day. Met a new friend and met an old one too. Fun fun fun.

I really hope that my I'll grow some patience and that I'll be more nicer to my grandparents (grandpa). Lol. Honestly, even though I may say a lot of mean things when I'm upset, I really do love him. I would be nothing without him. I love you grandpa. ♥

I think I need to sleep now. So I'm gonna go. Tooodles!


♥Pantie.

Guess What.

Chicken butt.
No, just kidding.

The good news is that my shoulder has healed a lot from yesterday's post. God has read my blog. =) Hahah. The bad news is that I have school in the morning, at 10 o'clock. But I haven't finished my AP Biology packets yet. I think I'll be staying up all night. Oh the joy AP biology brings me. Sike.

Speaking of time, what does A.M. and P.M. stand for? I've always wondered. Not really, it just popped into my head right now. Figures that: AM stands for ante meridiem, meridiem meaning noon in french. Ante is before, post meridiem is after noon. Noon in French is midi. Ante meridiem and post meridiem are actually latin. I'm too lazy to search for P.M.

Anywho, I just read Erica's blog and seems that SAT scores will be posted today (April7). Should I be nervous? Yeah, I think I should. At first, I thought, "Oh well. I'm sure I did bad anyway." But what is this slight sense of anxiety that is overwhelming me? Who knows. But still, I'm sure I did bad anyway.

I think I'm going to like Saturdays (at work) from now on. =) And maybe Fridays if I'm scheduled to work. Probably no one will know the reason why. Heheh.

Hm.. I'm kinda hungry.
Gotta finish my packets now. Goodnight!

♥Pantie.

Sense of Insecurities.

Spring Break Plans
04/4; work.
04/5; practice.
04/6; work, paycheck!
04/7; apbio crap @ school. work.
04/8; apbio crap @ school. work.
04/9; dentist appointment.
04/10
04/11; picnic w. girls? work.
04/12; church-o.
How wonderful.

Everyone's so excited about spring break. I thought I would be one of them, but oddly, I'm not. I think everyone knows the real meaning of spring break: drink, smoke, drop, whatever. In conclusion, get fucked up. Am I right? I'm kind of tired of living the same life everyday. School, work, home, eat, shower, homework, knock out, wake up, school, etc. If it weren't for my grandparents, I'd probably be a alcoholic/pothead. I'm thankful for them. (: It's so cliche, especially for me, to say that I want to exclude myself from that life and actually devote some time to studies. Since everybody probably knows that studying and I, just don't go together. Plus, my grandparents have been poking at my insecurities lately. Constantly bagging on me about my grades and all that crap.

Volleyball is so much drama. Girls are so much drama. Why? I don't know either. I think girls live off of drama, to be honest. But people in general love drama, love to be a part of something they have nothing to do with. Back to subject, though, some girls just need to shut the fuck up and suck it up. So many complaints, so many unsatisfied faces, I get really fed up with it from time to time. Speaking of volleyball, I might quit. Not because I don't want to play, trust, I love the sport. But I hurt my shoulder and it's not getting better. Maybe I should get it checked out. I don't know. My teammates are all falling apart and it's seriously starting to piss me off. The way some of the girls treat each other is just straight up ridiculous and makes my passion for volleyball slowly slip away.

I don't know where I'm headed. I'm on a road filled with unanswered questions without a destination. For a period of time, I thought I was going the right way, but now that I come to think of it, I'm aimlessly walking in this path. And this, pokes at my insecurities even more. I feel useless. I need to pray, LOL.

Now that it's spring break, I think it'll be an easier process for me to forget you. Part of me feels like it's a good thing, but at the same time, I miss you so much! Eff my indecisive self.

Anyway, I think I'll use my time wisely and do my spring break homework.

♥Pantie.

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything that I knew.
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.

Injured Shoulder.

Spring break is finally here. I'm so happy that I could jump for joy. Except right now, I'm really sleepy so I just want to sit on my chair and continue writing this blog. Anywho, today in computer class, I was bored out of my mind, once again. So I surreptitiously walked to the computer in the back of the room and logged into Blogspot. And then I typed away into a long, juicy post. In the end though, the computer was being a whackass loser so my post didn't get published. Right when I tried to post it, the bell rang. So due to our cheap computers, my lovely post is not available. :( I had a burst of jiral flowing in me too.

Anyway, I had work today since Sarah wanted a day off. Plus, she has pink eye. Feel better mama!! Work was extra tiring today. People were pissing me off and asking for refunds and ugh, so annoying. I saw John Km after like ten million years! Hahah. How coincidental. But after work, I was off to do the thing I loved to do: play volleyball. I was so tired but I had the urge to play, especially with the special game coming up on Sunday. Unfortunately, I didn't stretch enough so I hurt my shoulder while hitting. I don't know what it is, but I think I pulled a muscle. I really hope it gets better by Sunday. akjflaalfai.. My coach says he likes to put me in front row because I seem more comfortable. Which, by the way, is not quite true. I like playing back row but I like hitting too. I'm not even sure if I'm improving. Nya.

I'm tired. I have to ice my shoulder. So goodnight! Happy spring break! :D

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

Hey, I just looked that word up in the dictionary and I spelled it right. How amusing. Harhar. Anywho, I'm sitting in my boring, mundane computer class; like any other day of the week. I just finished my midterm and all that shibaz and I'm waiting until it's time for me to leave. I get to leave early because today is Multi-cultural Day and I'm helping out Kiwin's. Multi-Cultural day always excites me. But for some odd reason, ever since freshman year, I never had money. However, that chain is broken today because I have enough to fill me up to the top. YAY!

I came across the chain of comments going on in Jessica Yoon's blog, seems like everyone whose anyone knows about it. And I think the "anonymous" person, whoever it is, is just simply immature and absurd. It seems as if everybody has a suspicion of who this unknown person may be. Who am I to point fingers though, I don't even know the preson. Props to you Jess! She's one heck of a girl, won't let stupid shit like that keep her from posting blogs on continuously.

My teacher's coming and I gotta rush to help out for the festival so updates later. Much love.

♥Pantie.