Save. Our. Souls.

I have been lagging on the church-going. Please forgive me, God. I'm so caught up with my own life that I've been keeping God in the corner..with college apps, and all that other senior shananigan. I swear to myself I will get myself back on track. On a brighter note, I have been more active with doing my college applications, so that's good I suppose.

I figured people are their own person(s). So I am no one to judge or point fingers on what decisions a person makes but my own. If it's not my life, why should I bother? Clearly, they know what they're doing so there's no reason why I should be trying to make things right, right? But REALLY REALLY, please get your priorities straight. I know I'm not the one to speak, since I have a lot to work on myself, but whoa buddy. You've got to stop letting your mouth do everything 'cause that only shows people you can't man up to your words. You can talk the talk, but can you walk the walk? You might have the looks, but you sure as hell don't have the personality. Thank you for helping me point out assholes like you in the world who only take people for granted. You don't know what you have until it's gone? No, until you realize you never had, nor will ever have it. I hope you soon come to an understanding that you deserve so much better than that and you'll eventually move on. 'Cause I know you can.

Regrets aren't a part of me. I make mistakes, you make mistakes, get over it. I did things I wish I could take back but there's really nothing I can do about it now, is there? Think before you speak, please, at least for your own benefit. All I can say now is, live life to the fullest and do what makes you happy. There will be times when you feel like something hasn't satisfied you 100% but that's not something that should be holding you back from getting you to where you're going. Push for your goal, aim for the top, and reach for the highest.

"Nothing lasts forever. So live it up, drink it down. Laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances, and never have regrets because at one point, everything you did was exactly what you wanted."

I'm sorry we're not friends anymore and I'm sorry I can't stand it even when it's a simple 'Hello, how are you doing?' But I hope you'd think about the things that have happened between us which cause me to act the way I do towards you. It's not like I don't want us to be friends, but it's the things that occurred in the past. I'm always gonna have that scar you left and nothing you say can heal it. If anyone, you know me almost better than I know myself..and you know I'm not the type to keep grudges but like you told me a long time ago, there's a reason why people are in your life. The people that aren't there now didn't matter enough to make it to your future. I'm sorry things had to end the way they did but I'm not there anymore. I wish I was strong enough to stick by you 'till the end, like we said we would. But I'm tired of being your door mat, someone that you come running to when things don't go the way you plan with that person. You try to explain yourself but it's always the same cycle with you, and now, I'm immune to your lies.

It's almost 12. Church in the AM. Goodnight.