Almost.

I feeeeel emotional.

You know, I really think I made the wrong decision. I chose the wrong person over another person and in the end of it all, both of those people aren't in my life. I think I owe an apology to both of you, for being such a screw up; ruining everything we had, all the way down to our friendship. It's stupid of me to miss you now, since it's been a long time and now you've moved on with your life. But I don't think I ever got the chance to tell you how sorry I was and how many times I've thought about you after what happened. There's really no use now, but just the fact that I could've done so much more to make things better, kills me. Ultimately, I'm glad you're doing okay. Even if it hurts me to see it.

Lately, I've been "quiet," as Erica puts it. I've had a lot on my mind these days, which is not like me at all. I watched a lot of chick flick movies over the past few days and I've been such a cry baby about all of them.

I hate that I don't notice the obvious things that are right in front of me. I always have to want it back when it's long gone or not in my sight anymore. I sometimes really hate my personality. You know, I've been meaning to say, fuck our damn prides, because it has somewhat to do with why we don't give a shit about each other's existence anymore, or at least on your part.

Thank God the week is almost over.


♥Pantie.